No matter how hard I try I always run headfirst into brick wall when it comes to God. I can see that our world and universe weren’t made by accident. That there is a purpose to everything, and to everyone. But how does an all seeing, all knowing God have time for me. When there are billions of people out there, many in bad conditions.
And how can there be so much pain, hurt and evil in a world where a good and just God is ruler? I just have so many questions that make it hard to jump without certainty that I will be caught.
How is it so easy to see that a Divine Being created all things, but so hard to believe in that Being? With every baby, every flower, every star I see a miracle. With every word of the Bible, I see truth. I don’t understand, maybe that’s why I am having so much trouble committing all the way. Because it would mean I’m not in control, I don’t know what my future holds but God does.
I guess I’m also scared. I have made so many mistakes that have to be judged, and I have to face when I die.
I’m just lost because I believe, but fear is holding be back from trusting.
Read “The Hiding Place” by Corrie ten Boom. Maybe you will even want to write about her in your blog after.
sounds great I will give it a try…. loved that book btw
Firstly thank you for following my blog. My names is also Bella.
God, the Divine being, loves all his children. All human beings are his children. I believe this. God is benevolent and he just loves and guides us. When we work on our relationship with him, his words, and being good. Prayer , meditation, is away in which we speak to him.
I guess for me it is easy through meditation to feel his love and guidance. I think it’s like all relationships we have to work at it.
Hi Bella, and yes I agree with you, every good and true thing takes work. I guess I have to work harder to face my fears and trust than some do. Thank you so much for you input.
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