Beautiful Missed Moments
Comforting me after a bad dream, teaching me to ride a bike, pretending you love the gross Father’s day breakfast I made you, you teaching me to defend myself, me telling you I like a boy and you immediately hating him, learning to drive, my first date, my first job, my first heartbreak, helping me…
Sweet Siren
Like a siren, your voice calls out to me, Like a siren, it pulls me in, I have no control, Everything about you draws me closer, I cannot sense the peril, I cannot see the lie, You keep singing your song, And I keep believing the lyrics, You’re tailored to me, My own personal torture,…
Lethe
I let the memory of you kill me, I join the world of the dead, I collapse before Lethe, and to her I bow my head, with my hands I cradle her release, and to my mouth I welcome the sweet taste of oblivion, nothing is left, just desolation, I do not seek Mnemosyne or…
This Is Me
(trigger warning: self harm, suicided, substance abuse, child abuse) Look, I’m going to tell you my story from beginning to end, so grab you paper and pen, And I’ll tell you every one of my sins, … From a young age I was suicidal, Depression and anxiety followed me, Watched mom pop pills, cut her…
Narcissist
Beaten, Broken, Trapped, Faith stripped with every slap. Degrading, Manipulative, Controlling, Suffocating while you’re holding me. Alone, Afraid, Encaged, When was it that you changed? Done, Finished, Through, How deep can I cut to? Relief, Happy, Free, It is finally safe for me.
Playlist
I had this idea, That she was just your friend, I saw all the signs, Yet I still couldn’t comprehend, That you love her, That she is who you choose, That your heart belongs to her, And I have to cut you loose, I bet you gave her your hoodie, And she wears it everyday,…
Fake
Fake Smile, Fake Laugh, Fake Me, People see what they want to see, Forcing me to be who they want me to be, They look, But they can’t see me, I’m invisible, And they are blind, Blind to what is right in front of them, I’m waving, Screaming, Trying to get their attention, But I’m…
RED
With each dark thought I see red, All I can picture is red, Red everywhere, Red consuming me, I’m drowning in it, Suffocating, Searching for a way out, but there is none, I’m alone, Always alone, Always red, My own voice screaming in my head, It wont go away, It’s always there, My only companion,…
Dreams
In my dreams, fairytales come true, In my dream it’s just me and you, Hand in hand, Cheek on cheek. God was merciful to let us meet. Some dream of money and success, While others dream of rainbows and happiness. My dreams are one of a selfish act, Where I love you and you love…
Around and Around (Part 1)
I put my hand to my face and with a shriek I cry. I imminently hate myself for it, when I see a smile form across his face. Just another victim to the addiction. No! I refuse that title! I try to stand and am met with a rapid kick to the rib. This time…
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